I cannot believe what God has wrought in my life. Last night my husband came down the stairs and said to me the question is settled. Here is my letter of resignation. I do not know how he can do this but I told him whichever way you go will be in the path of duty. You will think it right, and I shall be satisfied. But how can I be satisfied when I feel my heart breaking over my husband leaving the country of his birth and family. A country that his family helped build. He has worked so hard his entire life being of service in the military. How can a man so patriotic now have to fight against his country? What will happen if he sees friends on the other side of his gun? And what will the family think! I know of very few in our family that want to see war break out and still fewer who will be glad to hear of his resignation. My poor husband does not think of what faces him he only thinks of what his conscience tells him.
Now that their father has resigned from his post I do not know what my sons will do. They have always admired their father and tried to emulate him in every way. Two of them have had careers in the military and my youngest wanted to go to West Point. Will they now too join with Virginia and leave the United States behind? I can not bear to see what God had helped create now be destroyed by men. How can this happen?
My husband has told me that should war break out that we will have to leave our home. I cannot bring myself to think of leaving Arlington. It would bring to end all that my family has worked for. What would we do with all of Washington’s things? How could I know they would be safe from thieves? I do not want to believe that I will have to leave my family home, the home I grew up in and the home that I have raised my children in. This home has been a place of peace and reverence for the country and George Washington. My father worked his entire life so that people would never forget the work that George Washington did to bring the country together. To have defeated the British and won independence only to be torn apart by our own hands seems an awful fate for the country. I pray that God will intervene and save the land that I love so dearly.
Virginia has seceded and I do not know what will happen to my family. I am concerned and scared for my children and my husband. He has said over and over again that he will not raise arms against his native state but what of his native country? I have prayed and prayed for my family and my husband during the trying time that the country has gone through and I cannot believe that God would have abandoned me now in my time of need but how can He see this as the right path for my family? I do not want to think about what will happen if my husband leaves the United States military but that is all I can think of. And my sons! My three sons who are all in the prime of their life, what will become of them? What will happen if they have to fight in any war? And my beautiful daughters! They are all ready for marriage and yet here comes a war and with that all the young men will be gone and then what will happen to my girls? I do not worry about Mary, my eldest, but the other three I pray for daily.
My husband will not talk to me about Virginia’s secession. He spends his time thinking and praying. I still believe that only God can stay the waves of anarchy & disunion & make the passions of men subservient to His will. We of the South have had great provocation, yet for my part I would rather endure the ills we know than rush madly into greater evils–& what could be great than the division of our glorious Republic into petty states, each seeking its private interest & unmindful of the whole. This magnificent country that both my husbands father and my father and grand father helped create now seems to be coming apart at the very seams. For states to leave the union that was created by men and God is unimaginable to me and yet everyday that passes brings to me more news of the country I love falling apart.
I pray day and night now and feel sometimes as though my prayers are not enough. God will not desert me in my time of need but it feels as if He has deserted the country. Why must these men fight war and not find compromise in shared loyalties? How can they choose to put an end to what General George Washington started? Virginia has seceded and my heart aches for the pain that will come.
My daughter Agnes went into DC today to visit some friends and do some errands for me. She visited several places of interest. Agnes first left the house which overlooks DC. From the front of Arlington House you can see the beginnings of the Washington Monument and the Capitol building being built. It is a glorious view that we have here at Arlington House. My husband feels that should war break out our property will become much fought over by both the United States military and the Confederate forces. I pray that this will not happen and that my family home will be safe.
Agnes first went to the White House to see where President Lincoln lives. She saw both the front and the back of the White House. She was disappointed to not to see a glimpse of the President but told me she was very proud to see where the man who promoted her father lived. I do not know how I feel about President Lincoln. He has done so much to hasten the break between the states.
After visiting the White House Agnes went to see the the Corcoran Gallery building site. This building has been under construction since 1859. The exterior of the building is almost complet Agnes says. She was able to see the front of the building and front door. She said that the work was beautifully done.
My daughter then went to see the Washington Monument. The monument has not yet been finished but our family is so proud to see a national memorial to General Washington. My father was raised by George and Martha Washington and spent his life keeping the memory of Washington alive. I cannot remember a time when my father was not talking to someone about his step grandfather. It is disappointing to see that the monument has not been finished sooner. It was started in 1848 and it is now 13 years later. If our nation needs a symbol of unity and reminder of how hard our grandfathers fought for our country it is now and the monument should be finished as soon as possible. I must say that Agnes was very active and despite such hot weather was able to visit many buildings and friends. God has blessed me in the health of my youngest child.
After seeing the Washington Monument Agnes went to the patent office. The building was started in 1836 under the presidency of Andrew Jackson and is still not complete. The distressing events of the past year and a lack of funding for the project have led to a delay in finishing the building. Agnes said the building was lovely though and was lucky enough to go inside and see part of the building that had been finished. After going around town all day Agnes was very tired and came home. She regaled the family with amusing stories of her travels and we were all glad to know she had a good time.
The pictures that you see in this post were taken on Monday April 4, 2011. All of the sites shown here were built or in the process of being built when the Lee’s lived at Arlington House. There is no evidence that Agnes Lee visited any of these sites.
As conflict continues to grow my thought have turned to my children and what will become of them should Virginia secede and war be declared. I have three boys and four girls I do not know what will happen if there is war in the country.
My eldest, George Washington Custis Lee, was born in 1832 and is 29 now. When he was little we called him Boo, but now he is Cusits to his family. He was the only one of children not to be born at Arlington. As a child he was a bit of a trouble maker but now as a man now he is a credit to his family and a blessing in my life. Out of my three sons Custis is the only on to have chosen to make a career out of the military. With states seceding I am afraid for him for he is still young enough to fight and it frightens me to think that he may have to choose between his country and his state. He is currently in the United States Army. I know that the talk of secession weigh heavily on him as they do his father. I pray daily that he will not have to make this choice, that God had other plans for the country and for my children.
My second son, William Henry Fitzhugh Lee, was born in 1837 and is 24. His family nick name is Rooney. As a child he was adventurous and lively. His father once said that he was “too large to be a man, too small to be horse.” When he was eight years old he cut his finger tips off with straw cutters and since that day I knew that I had to keep a close eye on him and have asked God to keep his eye on him as well. Should there be a war I am sure he would have to fight. He is married to Charlotte Wickham and they are very happy together at the White House. The property is located in New Kent County, Virginia and he inherited it from his Grandfather. I would be so sad to see this young couples tranquility broken. I pray for them daily and know that God will keep my family in mind.
My youngest son, Robert Edward Lee Jr., was born in 1843 and is 18. His family nick name is Rob. As a child he was a simple easy going child who loved nothing more than to talk with his father in the morning. He was and still is especially close to Mildred, the youngest child. He is currently at the University of Virginia, he enrolled there last year. I was glad to see one of my sons pursue a career besides the military and I would like to see him finish school. I fear though that he will follow his brothers and fight if that is what they choose. I would like to see him finish his work at school. He is so young and I do not want to have to face outliving any of my children.
It is a sad state of affairs when a country created not even 100 years ago may be torn asunder by the grandchildren of the men who fought for the creation and freedom of our country. I pray daily now that my children will be kept safe no matter what happens. The uncertainty that I live with right now is almost unbearable, only God can lighten my burden and guide my actions.